Extract: The Turn of the Key by Ruth Ware

turn of the key by ruth ware

Full of spellbinding menace, The Turn of the Key by Ruth Ware is a gripping modern-day haunted house thriller about a nanny who is accused of murder.

When Rowan stumbles across the advert, she’s looking for something else completely. But it seems like too good an opportunity to miss: a live-in nanny position, with a staggeringly generous salary.

When she arrives at Heatherbrae House, Rowan is smitten by the luxurious ‘smart’ home fitted out with all modern conveniences, by the beautiful Scottish Highlands, and by this picture-perfect family. But what she doesn’t know is that she’s stepping into a nightmare – one that will end with a child dead and her in a cell awaiting trial for murder.

Read on for an extract from The Turn of the Key by Ruth Ware!

The Turn of the Key
by
Ruth Ware

3 September 2017

Dear Mr Wrexham,

I know you don’t know me but please, please, please you have to help me

 
 

3 September 2017
HMP Charnworth

Dear Mr Wrexham,

You don’t know me, but you may have seen coverage of my case in the newspapers. The reason I am writing to you is to ask you please

 
 

4 September 2017
HMP Charnworth

Dear Mr Wrexham,

I hope that’s the right way to address you. I have never written to a barrister before.
        The first thing I have to say is that I know this is unconventional. I know I should have gone via my solicitor, but he’s

 
 

5 September 2017

Dear Mr Wrexham,

Are you a father? An uncle? If so, let me appeal

 
 

Dear Mr Wrexham,

Please help me. I didn’t kill anyone.

7 September 2017
HMP Charnworth

 
 

Dear Mr Wrexham,

You have no idea how many times I’ve started this letter and screwed up the resulting mess, but I’ve realised there is no magic formula here. There is no way I can make you listen to my case. So I’m just going to have to do my best to set things out. However long it takes, however much I mess this up, I’m just going to keep going, and tell the truth.
        My name is… And here I stop, wanting to tear up the page again.
        Because if I tell you my name, you will know why I am writing to you. My case has been all over the papers, my name in every headline, my agonised face staring out of every front page and every single article insinuating my guilt in a way that falls only just short of contempt of court. If I tell you my name, I have a horrible feeling you might write me off as a lost cause, and throw my letter away. I wouldn’t entirely blame you, but please – before you do that, hear me out.
        I am a young woman, twenty-seven years old, and as you’ll have seen from the return address above, I am currently at the Scottish women’s prison HMP Charnworth. I’ve never received a letter from anyone in prison, so I don’t know what they look like when they come through the door, but I imagine my current living arrangements were pretty obvious even before you opened the envelope.
        What you probably don’t know is that I’m on remand.
        And what you cannot know is that I’m innocent.
        I know, I know. They all say that. Every single person I’ve met here is innocent – according to them, anyway. But in my case it’s true.
        You may have guessed what’s coming next. I’m writing to ask you to represent me as my solicitor advocate at my trial.
        I realise that this is unconventional, and not how defendants are supposed to approach advocates. (I accidentally called you a barrister in an earlier draft of this letter – I know nothing about the law, and even less about the Scottish system. Everything I do know I have picked up from the women I’m in prison with, including your name.)
        I have a solicitor already – Mr Gates – and from what I understand, he is the person who should be appointing an advocate for the actual trial. But he is also the person who landed me here in the first place. I didn’t choose him – the police picked him for me when I began to get scared and finally had the sense to shut up and refuse to answer questions until they found me a lawyer.
        I thought that he would straighten everything out – help me to make my case. But when he arrived – I don’t know, I can’t explain it. He just made everything worse. He didn’t let me speak. Everything I tried to say he was cutting in with ‘My client has no comment at this time’ and it just made me look guiltier. I feel like if only I could have explained properly, it would never have got this far. But somehow the facts just kept twisting in my mouth and the police, they made everything sound so bad, so incriminating.
        It’s not that Mr Gates hasn’t heard my side of the story, exactly. He has of course – but somehow – oh God, this is so hard to explain in writing. He’s sat down and talked to me but he doesn’t listen. Or if he does, he doesn’t believe me. Every time I try to tell him what happened, starting from the beginning, he cuts in with these questions that muddle me up and my story gets all tangled and I want to scream at him to just shut the fuck up.
        And he keeps talking to me about what I said in the transcripts from that awful first night at the police station when they grilled me and grilled me and I said – God, I don’t know what I said. I’m sorry, I’m crying now. I’m sorry – I’m so sorry for the stains on the paper. I hope you can read my writing through the blotches.
        What I said, what I said then, there’s no undoing that. I know that. They have all that on tape. And it’s bad – it’s really bad. But it came out wrong; I feel like if only I could be given a chance to get my case across, to someone who would really listen… do you see what I’m saying?
        Oh God, maybe you don’t. You’ve never been here after all. You’ve never sat across a desk feeling so exhausted you want to drop and so scared you want to vomit, with the police asking and asking and asking until you don’t know what you’re saying any more.
        I guess it comes down to this in the end.
        I am the nanny in the Elincourt case, Mr Wrexham.
        And I didn’t kill that child.

I started writing to you last night, Mr Wrexham, and when I woke up this morning and looked at the crumpled pages covered with my pleading scrawl, my first instinct was to rip them up and start again just like I had a dozen times before. I had meant to be so cool, so calm and collected – I had meant to set everything out so clearly and make you see. And instead I ended up crying onto the page in a mess of recrimination.
        But then I re-read what I’d written and I thought, no. I can’t start again. I just have to keep going.
        All this time I have been telling myself that if only someone would let me clear my head and get my side of the story straight, without interrupting, maybe this whole awful mess would get sorted out.
        And here I am. This is my chance, right?
        140 days they can hold you in Scotland before a trial. Though there’s a woman here who has been waiting almost ten months. Ten months! Do you know how long that is, Mr Wrexham? You probably think you do, but let me tell you. In her case that’s 297 days. She’s missed Christmas with her kids. She’s missed all their birthdays. She’s missed Mother’s Day and Easter and first days at school.
        297 days. And they still keep pushing back the date of her trial.
        Mr Gates says he doesn’t think mine will take that long because of all the publicity, but I don’t see how he can be sure.
        Either way, 100 days, 140 days, 297 days… that’s a lot of writing time, Mr Wrexham. A lot of time to think, and remember, and try to work out what really happened. Because there’s so much I don’t understand, but there’s one thing I know. I did not kill that little girl. I didn’t. However hard the police try to twist the facts and trip me up, they can’t change that.
        I didn’t kill her. Which means someone else did. And they are out there.
        While I am in here, rotting.
        I will finish now, because I know I can’t make this letter too long – you’re a busy man, you’ll just stop reading.
        But please, you have to believe me. You’re the only person who can help.
        Please, come and see me, Mr Wrexham. Let me explain the situation to you, and how I got tangled into this nightmare. If anyone can make the jury understand, it’s you.
        I have put your name down for a visitor’s pass – or you can write to me here if you have more questions. It’s not like I’m going anywhere. Ha.
        Sorry, I didn’t mean to end on a joke. It’s not a laughing matter; I know that. If I’m convicted, I’m facing—
        But no. I can’t think about that. Not right now. I won’t be. I won’t be convicted because I’m innocent. I just have to make everyone understand that. Starting with you.
        Please, Mr Wrexham, please say you’ll help. Please write back. I don’t want to be melodramatic about this, but I feel like you’re my only hope.
        Mr Gates doesn’t believe me; I see it in his eyes.
        But I think that you might.

 
 

12 September 2017
HMP Charnworth

Dear Mr Wrexham,

It has been three days since I wrote to you, and I’m not going to lie, I’ve been waiting for a reply with my heart in my mouth. Every day the post comes round and I feel my pulse speed up, with a kind of painful hope, and every day (so far) you’ve let me down.
        I’m sorry. That sounds like emotional blackmail. I don’t mean it like that. I get it. You’re a busy man, and it has only been three days since I sent my letter but… I guess I half hoped that if the publicity surrounding the case had done nothing else, it would have given me a certain twisted celebrity – made you pick out my letter from among all the others you presumably get from clients and would-be clients and nutters.
        Don’t you want to know what happened, Mr Wrexham? I would.
        Anyway, it has been three days now (did I mention that already?) and… well, I’m beginning to worry. There’s not much to do in here, and there’s a lot of time to think and fret and start to build up catastrophes inside your head.
        I’ve spent the last few days and nights doing that. Worrying that you didn’t get the letter. Worrying that the prison authorities didn’t pass it on (can they do that without telling me? I honestly don’t know). Worrying that I didn’t explain right.
        It’s the last one that has been keeping me awake. Because if it’s that, then it’s my fault.
        I was trying to keep it short and snappy, but now I’m thinking, I shouldn’t have stopped so quickly. I should have put in more of the facts, tried to show you why I’m innocent. Because you can’t just take my word for it – I get that.
        When I came here the other women – I can be honest with you, Mr Wrexham – they felt like another species. It’s not that I think I’m better than them. But they all seemed… they all seemed to fit in here. Even the frightened ones, the self-harmers and the ones who screamed and banged their heads against their cell walls and cried at night, even the girls barely out of school. They looked… I don’t know. They looked like they belonged here, with their pale, gaunt faces and their pulled-back hair and their blurred tattoos. They looked… well, they looked guilty.
        But I was different.
        I’m English for a start, of course, which didn’t help. I couldn’t understand them when they got angry and started shouting and all up in my face. I had no idea what half the slang meant. And I was visibly middle class, in a way that I can’t put my finger on, but which might as well have been written across my forehead as far as the other women were concerned.
        But the main thing was, I had never been in prison. I don’t think I’d ever even met someone who had, before I came here. There were secret codes I couldn’t decipher, and currents I had no way of navigating. I didn’t understand what was going on when one woman passed something to another in the corridor and all of a sudden the wardens came barrelling out shouting. I didn’t see the fights coming, I didn’t know who was off her meds, or who was coming down from a high and might lash out. I didn’t know the ones to avoid or the ones with permanent PMS. I didn’t know what to wear or what to do, or what would get you spat on or punched by the other inmates, or provoke the wardens to come down hard on you.
        I sounded different. I looked different. I felt different.
        And then one day I went into the bathroom and I caught a glimpse of a woman walking towards me from the far corner. She had her hair scraped back like all the others, her eyes were like chips of granite, and her face was set, hard and white. My first thought was, Oh God, she looks pissed off, I wonder what she’s in for.
        My second thought was, maybe I’d better use the other bathroom.
        And then I realised.
        It was a mirror on the far wall. The woman was me.
        It should have been a shock – the realisation that I wasn’t different at all, but just another woman sucked into this soulless system. But in a strange way it helped.
        I still don’t fit in completely. I’m still the English girl – and they all know what I’m in for. In prison, they don’t like people who harm children, Mr Wrexham, you probably know that. I’ve told them it’s not true, of course – what I’m accused of. But they look at me and I know what they’re thinking – they all say that.
        And I know – I know that’s what you’ll be thinking too. That’s what I wanted to say. I understand if you’re sceptical. I didn’t manage to convince the police, after all. I’m here. Without bail. I must be guilty.
        But it’s not true.
        I have 140 days to convince you. All I have to do is tell the truth, right? I just have to start at the beginning, and set it all out, clearly and calmly, until I get to the end.
        And the beginning was the advert.

        WANTED: Large family seeks experienced live-in nanny.

        ABOUT US: We are a busy family with four children, living in a beautiful (but remote!) house in the Highlands. Mum and Dad co-run the family architecture practice.

        ABOUT YOU: We are seeking an experienced nanny, used to working with children of all ages, from babyhood to teens. You must be practical, unflappable and comfortable looking after children on your own. Excellent references, background check, first aid certificate and clean driving licence are a must.

        ABOUT THE POST: Mum and Dad work mainly from home and during those periods you will have a simple eight–five post, with one night a week babysitting and weekends off. As far as possible we arrange our schedule so that one parent is always around. However, there are times when we may both need to be away (very occasionally for up to a fortnight), and when this occurs, you will be in loco parentis.

        In return we can offer a highly competitive remuneration package totalling £55,000 per annum (gross, including bonus), use of a car and eight weeks’ holiday a year.

        Applications to Sandra and Bill Elincourt, Heatherbrae House, Carn Bridge.

I remember it nearly word for word. The funny thing was, I wasn’t even looking for a job when it came up on my Google results – I was searching for… well, it doesn’t really matter what I was looking for. But something completely different. And then there it was – like a gift thrown into my hands so unexpectedly I almost didn’t catch it.
        I read it through once, and then again, my heart beating faster the second time, because it was perfect. It was almost too perfect.
        When I read it a third time I was scared to look at the closing date for applications – convinced I would have missed it.
        But it was that very evening.
        It was unbelievable. Not just the salary – though God knows, that was a pretty startling sum. Not just the post. But the luck of it. The whole package – just falling in my lap, right when I was in the perfect position to apply.
        You see, my flatmate was away, travelling. We’d met at the Little Nippers nursery in Peckham, working side by side in the baby room, laughing about our terrible boss and the pushy, faddy parents, with their fucking fabric nappies and their home-made—
        Sorry. I shouldn’t have sworn. I’ve scribbled it out but you can probably see the word through the paper and, God knows, maybe you’ve got kids, maybe you even put them in Little Plushy Bottoms or whatever the fashionable brand was at the time.
        And I get it, I do. They’re your babies. Nothing is too much trouble. I understand that. It’s just that when you’re the one having to stockpile a whole day’s worth of pissy, shitty bits of cloth and hand them back to the parent at collection time with your eyes watering from the ammonia… it’s not that I mind exactly, you know? It’s part of the job. I get that. But we all deserve a moan, don’t we? We all need to let off steam, or we’d explode with frustration.
        Sorry. I’m rambling. Maybe this is why Mr Gates is always trying to shut me up. Because I dig myself a hole with my words, and instead of knowing when to stop, I keep digging. You’re probably adding two and two together right now. Doesn’t seem to like kids much. Freely admits to frustration with role. What would happen when she was cooped up with four kids and no adults to ‘let off steam’ with?
        That’s exactly what the police did. All those little throwaway remarks – all those unedifying facts. I could see the triumph on their faces every time I dropped one, and I watched them picking them up like breadcrumbs, adding them to the weight of arguments against me.
        But that’s the thing, Mr Wrexham. I could spin you a web of bullshit about what a perfect, caring, saintly person I am – but it would be just that. Bullshit. And I am not here to bullshit you. I want you to believe that – I want it more than anything in the world.
        I am telling you the truth. The unvarnished, ugly truth. And it is all that. It is unpolished and unpleasant and I don’t pretend I acted like an angel. But I didn’t kill anyone. I just fucking didn’t.
        I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to swear again.
        God, I am messing this up so badly. I have to keep a clear head – get this all straight in my head. It’s like Mr Gates says – I should stick to the facts.
        Okay then. Fact. The advert. The advert is a fact, right?
        The advert… with its amazing, dizzying, fabulous salary.
        That should have been my first warning signal, you know. The salary. Because it was stupidly generous. I mean it would have been generous even for London, even for a live-out nanny. But for a nanny in someone’s house, with free accommodation provided, and all bills paid, even down to the car, it was ridiculous.
        It was so ridiculous, in fact, that I half wondered if there had been a typo. Or something that they weren’t saying – a child with significant behavioural needs maybe? But wouldn’t they have mentioned that in the ad?
        Six months ago, I probably would have frowned, wondered a little, and then passed on without thinking too much more about it. But then, six months ago I wouldn’t have been looking at that web page in the first place. Six months ago I had a flatmate and a job I liked, and even the prospect of promotion. Six months ago I was in a pretty good place. But now… well, things were a bit different now.
        My friend, the girl I mentioned at Little Nippers, had left to go travelling a couple of months ago. It hadn’t seemed like the end of the world when she told me – to be honest, I found her quite annoying, her habit of loading the dishwasher but never actually switching it on, her endless Euro-pop disco hits, hissing through my bedroom wall when I was trying to sleep. I mean, I knew I’d miss her, but I didn’t realise how much.
        She had left her stuff in her room and we’d agreed she’d pay half the rent and I’d keep the room open for her. It seemed like a good compromise – I’d had a series of terrible flatmates before we found each other, and I wasn’t keen to return to posting on Facebook Local and trying to weed out weirdos by text message and email, and it felt, in some small way, like an anchor – like a guarantee that she would come back.
        But when the first flush of freedom wore off, and the novelty of having the whole place to myself and watching whatever I liked on the shared TV in the living room had started to fade a little, I found I was lonely. I missed the way she’d say ‘Wine o’clock, darling?’ when we rolled in together from work. I missed sounding off to her about Val, the owner of Little Nippers, and sharing anecdotes about the worst of the parents. When I applied for a promotion and didn’t get it, I went to the pub alone to drown my sorrows and ended up crying into my beer, thinking how different it would have been if she had still been here. We could have laughed about it together; she would have flicked Val the vees behind her back at work, and given her earthy belly laugh when Val turned around to almost catch her in the act.
        I am not very good at failing, Mr Wrexham, that’s the thing. Exams. Dating. Jobs. Any kind of test, really. My instinct is always to aim low, save myself some pain. Or, in the case of dating, just don’t aim at all, rather than risk being rejected. It’s why I didn’t go to university in the end. I had the grades, but I couldn’t bear the idea of being turned down, the thought of them reading my applications with scornful sniggers. ‘Who does she think she is?’
        Better to achieve perfect marks in an easy test, than flunk a hard one; that was my motto. I’ve always known that about myself. But what I didn’t know, until my flatmate left, was that I am also not very good at being alone. And I think it was that, more than anything that pushed me out of my comfort zone, and made me scroll down that advert holding my breath, imagining what lay at the other end of it.
        The police made a lot out of the salary, when they first questioned me. But the truth is, the money wasn’t the reason I applied for the post. It wasn’t even really about my flatmate, though I can’t deny, if she hadn’t left, none of it would have happened. No, the real reason… well, you probably know what the real reason was. It was all over the papers, after all.

I called in sick to Little Nippers and spent the entire day working on a CV and getting together everything that I knew I would need to convince the Elincourts that I was the person they were looking for. Background check – check. First aid certificate – check. Spotless references – check, check and check.
        The only problem was the driving licence. But I pushed the issue aside for the moment. I could cross that bridge when I came to it – if I got that far. Right now, I wasn’t thinking past the interview.
        I added a note to the covering letter asking the Elincourts not to contact Little Nippers for a reference – I told them that I didn’t want my current employers knowing that I was casting about for another job, which was true – and then I emailed it off to the address provided and held my breath and waited.
        I had given myself the best possible chance of meeting them face to face. There was nothing else I could do now.

Those next few days were hard, Mr Wrexham. Not as hard as the time I’ve spent in here, but hard enough. Because God, I wanted that interview so much. I was only just beginning to realise how much. With every day that passed my hopes ebbed a little more, and I had to fight off the urge to contact them again and beg for an answer. The only thing that stopped me was the knowledge that looking so desperate would certainly no help my case if they were still deciding.
        But six days later it came, pinging into my email inbox.

        To: supernanny1990@ymail.com
        From: sandra.elincourt@elincourtandelincourt.com
        Subject: Nanny position

Elincourt. The surname alone was enough to make my stomach start churning like a washing machine. My fingers were shaking almost too much to open it, and my heart was hammering in my throat. Surely, surely they didn’t often contact unsuccessful applicants. Surely an email must mean …?
        I clicked.

Hi Rowan! Thank you so much for your application, and apologies for taking so long to get back to you. I have to admit, we were slightly taken by surprise at the volume of applications. Your CV was very impressive, and we would like to invite you to interview. Our house is rather remote, so we are happy to pay your train fare, and can offer you a room in our house overnight, as you will not be able to make the trip from London in one day.
        However, there is one thing I must make you aware of up front, in case it affects your enthusiasm for the post.
        Since we bought Heatherbrae, we have become aware of various superstitions surrounding the house’s history. It is an old building, and has had no more than the usual number of deaths and tragedies in its past, but for some reason these have resulted in some local tales of hauntings etc. Unfortunately, this fact has upset some of our recent nannies, to the extent that four have resigned in the past fourteen months.
        As you can imagine this has been very disruptive for the children, not to mention extremely awkward for myself and my husband professionally.
        For that reason we wanted to be completely honest about our predicament, and we are offering a generous salary in the hopes of attracting someone who can really commit to staying with our family for the long term – at least a year.
        If you do not feel that is you, or if you feel at all concerned about the history of the house, please say so now as we are very keen to minimise further disruption to the children. With that in mind, the salary will be made up of a basic stipend, paid monthly, and then a generous year-end bonus on the anniversary of employment.
        If you are still keen to attend the interview, please let me know your availability for the forthcoming week.
        Best wishes, and I look forward to meeting you.
        Sandra Elincourt

I closed down the email and for a moment just sat there staring at the screen. Then I got up and did a little silent scream, punching the air in jubilation.
        I had done it. I had done it.
        I should have known it was too good to be true.

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14 Comments

  1. Margie M. says

    Wow! I was excited about this book even before I had read only it’s title. But now after reading the first chapter I am waiting with bated breath (as the saying goes) for it’s release date. Once again Ruth Ware has written a really great story that grabs you from the beginning. I can hardly wait to read it! 📖

  2. Roger Hoke says

    Really powerful, gripping stuff! Rowan’s desperation and anguish is truly palpable. Like Rowan, I’m as frustrated and desperate to know the outcome as she is. Somehow, Ruth Ware’s magic has left me feeling that I am sharing in Rowan’s incarceration. Since reading a previous novel, The Death of Mrs Westaway, Ruth Ware has become one of my favourite authors and I know we’re in for a real treat!

  3. Candy Becker says

    Oh, my gosh….. I want more!
    What a tease. As always, Ruth Ware delivers a great opening, making you want to keep reading! Can’t wait!
    I love the cover with the keyhole.

  4. info@crittercottage.ca says

    Oh, I can’t wait. I’m a huge Ruth Ware fan. She is brilliant. Can’t wait for the audiobook.

  5. evi fetterman says

    Loved the “tease”. Pre ordered it on Amazon last week. Can’t wait!

  6. Lesley K. says

    I am SO excited to read this book! I love Ruth Ware and have read everything she’s written so far. Loved the excerpt, I am incredibly intrigued!

  7. Abdulia Ortiz says

    Omg how exciting I am about this book. Just finish the first chapter and now I want more and more. The Excitement I have I can’t wait. Omg Summer needs to hurry and come already. So need to read the rest of the book.
    Also love both cover of the your book.

  8. Sarah R. says

    I picked this for our book club book and by the exerpt, I can see we won’t be disappointed. I only wish I had an advanced copy so I could keep reading and prepare for the event.

  9. Judy E says

    OMG I want more …. hurry up summer …. Ruth Ware I have read all of your books so far and thoroughly enjoyed each one …..

  10. Anita Vinesett says

    I’ve read all of Ruth Wares books been a fan from the beginning with In a Dark Dark Woods. My love of her books and for Ruth as a author has only grown with every new book she writes. I’ve sang her praises and I’ve recommended her to all of my friends who are now fans as well. I can’t wait for the release here in the states and I love both covers but I’m drawn more to the USA book with just the key hole. I was steady reading and then the door was closed on me so not fair it’s going to be a long couple of month here waiting but well worth it thanks for sharing .

  11. Morgan says

    That first Chapter was amazing! I loved it! The mention of the house being haunted was perfect. I need to know more. Can’t wait!

  12. Jolynn A says

    So far so good!! I will definitely be reading this when it is released.

  13. Cheri P says

    I’m excited for the release of this book! I’ve enjoyed all previous novels by Ruth Ware. I’m in Canada and not sure if the release date here for Kindle and iBooks will be August or September. I will definitely be ready to snap it up as soon as it’s available:)